hey all,

alot has been going on and i have been really busy so i haven't had much time to get on and update. Tuesday i stayed after school and talked to Aerris for awhile then i had to babysit till 9:30. On Wed. amy was sick so i stayed after school again and talked with some people then i had to babysit again and when i got home around 9 I had to make cookies for Cora's birthday. On Thurs. I can't remember what i did lol but i was busy. Then yesterday Ted Bailey ,a family friend from alexis, came to visit us as a surprise so we went out for pizza and then watched some movies. Today ted took us out for breakfast then later we met my mom for lunch, then he left at like 3:30 and i am here at my computer doing this.

                          more later,

                         ~allison

I had a ton but then the page disappeared so here's the jist of it...i had a good day and i don't know why, i was really happy and i don't know why, and i had a geometry test and i don't think i did good. i'm done now because i am afraid the page is going to go away so i'll write more tomorrow!

                                                        lotsa luv

                                                        -allison-

hey,

So lately i have been thinking alot. I am really happy for the most part, school is great and i love my friends, but something is bugging me. I think it is because i feel like i am pulling away from god and my relationship with him is pretty much non-existent right now, which is pretty wierd considering my dad is a pastor and i am always doing stuff at the church. I have no problem with it and i like it but i still don't have a realationship with him anymore. I have been reading these books lately about a girl who is going through high school and goes through some roungh times but then she finds god and whenever she gets off track she knows something is wrong and she gets back on track because she feels like she can't survive with out him. The scary thing for me is that i know i don't have a good realationship with him now and i don't feel like i can't live without him. I do know that i don't want to live without him and i need him in my life. Another thing is my sister and i have pretty much been put in charge of starting our youth group and our youth pastor and my sister are always looking to me during our bible studies to get things going or to help explain something but the thing is i am struggling myself and i don't want to trick somebody into thinking that i am i don't know something i'm not i guess....i just don't like to have to act like i know the answer to something if i am struggling with the same thing. ( i hope that made sense). Anyway right now i just need some words of encouragement becasuse i don't feel like i have anyone i can really talk to about this because i am pretty sure most people think that since i am a PK and all i have things all figured out.

                                ~ i need a wake up call......help~

             *allison*